Wednesday, April 22, 2009

I feel like you should know...

I am not adopting because I need to save the world. I'm not adopting because I feel like I need to give back to humanity, or save some poor soul from a terrible life. I'm not adopting because I'm a good person.

Wow, that sounds harsh. I don't mean it to be, but that has nothing to do with why I'm adopting (not that those aren't good reasons).

I am adopting because I need to be a mom. It's a job I was born to do, and I have NEVER wanted anything more. I want nothing more than to hold my baby as he (or she) falls asleep, or to feel the love as they hug me for the first time. I want to watch them grow older, and have them watch me grow old. I want to see them get married. I want to be a Grandma one day.

Sure, Mommies are in the business of saving people...I believe we all save the world in some way as we strive to raise our sons and daughters to be good, God-loving, people. But I don't ever want my son or daughter to think that they are only in my life because I saved them from something else. They'll grow up knowing that they were brought into our lives because they were chosen by God to be our son or daughter. I belive that with all that I am. Afer all, is that not the way all children come into our lives??

Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to
birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before
you, The days of my life all prepared before I'd even
lived one day.

Psalm 139:15-16

Please keep us in your prayers as we wait to hear from the Ontario Goverment!

Becky :)


veronking2003 said...

You're in my thought and prayers...I've been on the edge of my seat reading your blog, praying that God will bless you with the family you've always wanted. You'll be a wonderful mother!